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Sometimes the silence is deafening

Well, that's not true... it's not about being unwanted, it's sitting in a room with a forgotten memory after earning everything you could hope for and not being recognized, seen, heard, your words falling on deaf ears, your actions having no merit, everything you do being judged, and your friends turning their back on you for the sake of themselves. Its something more akin to being ignored, it is like not existing for no reason other than someone's unwillingness to look at you after you have earned their attention.
It is feeling insignificant to the people you should matter most to, and that isn't something inside you... it's those people that make you feel alone. 
You could sit in a room full of people desiring your attention and never be heard. Which I think teaches you your voice doesn't matter, even though it's always mattered whether in words or text or thought... the scariest people are the ones who listen because when you are finally encouraged to speak or heard you have nothing more to say.

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